~ 2/26/2006 02:49:00 PM ~
Sunday, February 26, 2006
[tests and exams should be banned!]
eva since sec4..
i've been getting these fears and uncopable stress for major examinations..
i figured maybe it was bcuz in my 3 yrs of education in dhs..
there wasnt much tests or exams to prepare for..
maybe some class tests.. or small common tests..
and it was usually only for a subject..
so it wasnt much of a bother..
sigh.. so why does it only seem to be only me that is getting so stressed out for sth(yes it's sth major probably) but others are optimistic enough to just get it over and done with w/o much worries???
maybe its cuz i fear the consequences..
cuz i have these conceptions that if i screw these major tests and exams..
i'd be dead...
experience tells me it's not always true though..
i mean.. in the end i end up doing okok.. or soso..
or at least better than others already..
yet ppl who seem less prepared than i am can still be so calm and relaxed..
i mean.. are they not afraid??
afraid of getting punished... retained.. humiliated??
grrr!!
and i juz dont learn my lessons..
i noe myself that my studying speed lags an average person by like miles and miles..
so means i should start preparing like months b4 the test/exam..
but i donT!!! and i cAnt!!!!
ah!
~ 2/26/2006 02:35:00 PM ~
[tests and exams should be banned!]
god help me please!!!
tml marks the start of common tests..
IMPORTANT TESTS...
some ppl may have to retain if they dun pass all subs..
how tell me.. how impt is that man..
and i din do exactly well for promos last yr..
so wad will happen to me if i dun pass?? which i think is very likely for me...
oh man.. die..
that's y i noe i'll always die... even b4 sitting for the papers..
cuz im not prepared.. and thus i'll not do well.. which will land me in a unforgiving circumtance..
i think....
argggggghh..
and here im still not doing anything about it..
maybe it shows i've given up..
i mean.. wad's the point of trying now.. it's already WAY TOO LATE...
would these last few hours of mugging help??
well.. maybe..
at least i can learn a few more formulaes..
budden.. reading a single topic already takes me 3 hours!!!! so means i only can like learn 1 topic only??? which will be of much help to my passing??? or den again.. maybe it will???
maybe the qns that come out would be needing those knowledge which i acquired in the last hours of cramming???
wad are the chances however...
seriously...
sigh...
okay..
at least maybe i should give it a try...
